Friday, March 12, 2010

one day at a time

I feel like I have been on a roller coaster for the last six months. At points, I was fine, excited, scared, anxious, hurt & even felt sick. Never before have I been on such a ride. I feel like the ride is over now, & I just started to move forward. I don't know exactly what that looks like, & I don't regret any part of my ride, rather I look back on it & remember, reflect, & learn. Through the good & bad parts. Through the pain & doubt. These roller coasters are what life is all about. We can't predict what kind of ride they will be, nor can we see the end. We just have to go for it. We need to be cautious, though, & protect ourselves. All in all, at the very least, it is all a learning experience.

I am so grateful to the Lord for bringing me through it all, every step, in every which way. He has been the only constant in my life, & once again, He has proven Himself faithful & just. I don't know where He is taking me next. I am more than willing & more ready than ever to get there.

I have a lot to be excited for in life right now. In April, I have been given the opportunity to go back on tour for LiNK - Liberty in North Korea, but this time for only a couple weeks. I will be going with a good friend of mine, & that will make the trip so great, I just know it. I love doing work for LiNK, whether that is Artist Relations, busy work or touring/screenings. There is something about doing something outside of yourself - for someone else, that makes life worth living. The best part is I will be traveling the South. It has been my dream for years to do this. Georgia, here I come!

I am still unemployed, but I finally started receiving unemployment from the government. Which has put my anxious stomach at ease. I still feel productive though. Not having a job where I clock-in, clock-out is all that I know. Literally, since I was 15 1/2, I have always had a job. Now, I don't have to be any specific place at any specific time [except for the Sunday school job I have] yet, I feel like I still have purpose. I feel I have been able to be there for my friends even more than before, I have more available time for LiNK, & most important, God has been doing some crazy things in my life, which to be honest, if I had a job right now, I feel like I wouldn't be able to handle it. & That is the beauty of God - He never gives us more than we can handle.

This summer might also be one full of tour & exciting opportunities, but we will have to see as the time gets closer.

All in all, God is amazing. He is faithful & ever present in my life.
Without His guidance, I have no idea where I'd be right now.

OH! Also, Fullerton Rock Harbor has been absolutely mind-blowing, every week so far. If you can, you should check it out. It meets right near Fullerton College off Lemon in between Chapman & Wilshire, on Sundays at 7pm or 9pm. GO!

Hope you all [who read this] are doing great. Let me know if I can be praying for you in anyway.

& as always, & even ever more true in my life as of lately :
Keep fighting the good fight.

1 comment:

  1. love this and you, bren. i'm so excited to see what He has in store for you next <3